The Unwinding Cable Car

day 1. A letter to an inanimate object you hate.

Dear Mirror.

    I’m sorry. I know its not your fault, its not really. I look you, and you reflect me, and I just get a little bit sad. I know that its just your nature to reflect what you see, but what I see is not what I want to be there. It’s just sad that social media and society as gotten me so unsure of myself, so self conscious of the way that I don’t have perfect teeth, that my eyes aren’t level, how my cheeks are a little chubby. I hate the way I feel after looking at you. I broke one of you guys once because I hated what I saw. I still don’t like it, but I’m getting better at realizing that being skinny and looking alien like is not the only way to beautiful through looks.

Rachel

30 Day Challenge

day 1. A letter to an inanimate object you hate.

day 2. A letter to a dinosaur.
day 3. A letter to a movie character
day 4. A letter to someone you want to kick in the face expressing why you  want to kick them in the face
day 5. A letter to a celebrity you want to kick in the face
day 6. A HEARTFELT letter to some food
day 7. A letter to a historical event
day 8. A letter to a giant space robot
day 9. A letter to the coolest person you’ve never met
day 10. A letter to an alien race.
day 11. A letter to your last bowel movement
day 12. A letter to a mythological creature
day 13. A letter to a word you don’t like
day 14. A letter to a word you love
day 15. A letter to your crotch.
day 16. A letter to your bed
day 17. A letter to a video game character
day 18. A letter to a website that ruined your life
day 19. A letter to an animal you like
day 20. A letter to an animal you think is fucking stupid
day 21. A letter to something you’ve owned for 5 years+
day 22. A letter to something you want to fuck
day 23. A letter to the drug of your choice.
day 24. A letter to one of your bodyparts
day 25. A letter to Gary Busey
day 26. A letter to the future cyborg version of you
day 27. A letter to band that really needs to break up
day 28. A letter to a movie you hate
day 29. A letter to a letter you’ve written
day 30. A letter to a bowl of fruit

I am tired. Tired of wandering, feeling as if there is something is missing. Constantly seeking and desiring something intangible. I am restless. Constantly finding solace in music, writing, poetry, and drawing. I am only soothed by what once made me joyful. I am certain I will never actively find this missing piece. I may have to just wait. To go about my day and go through the motions until one day it reappears as an old friend I have not seen, welcoming it openly back into my heart. I will go through the motions. I will smile, I will giggle. I will be functional. I will not fall in on myself, I will not be a pessimist. I will not shut down.